Messy

Nursing school is overwhelming. What if I can't hack it? I'm not happy. I have started to resent Rick. I feel inadequate because he doesn't return romantic love for me, but he can surely lead me on. What with his gleam in his eyes when he talks to me and his hugs and the things he says. A couple people are convinced that we will get married one day. Another friend just doesn't understand him at all. I indulged in hope this past week when I confided in yet another friend and told the Rick saga.
My room is a mess.
My car is a mess.
My mind is a mess.
My heart is a mess.