"Count it all joy..."

Sometimes I wonder if I am making a mistake loving him. If only it would stay like this forever. But one day he will leave and I will have to stop and recover from his absence. Alas, this is more than a year down the road. December 2006. That is if he sticks with library science. I am totally at the mercy of God. I don't have control. This is why God put him in my life -- to show me I never did.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart...

Jeremiah 29:11-13